Friday, October 29, 2004

``_____.*wat am i suppose to do?!.#

feelin so helpless...sigh...wat imma suppose ta do ehh?! sick obe livin le...sick obe life...

10:42 PM Z

``_____.*still habon slp....#

sigh...cum back till nw still habon slp nehx...so bored...feel like goin back to d chalet and nva cum hm...h8 d feelin at hm...wOw strted missin u guys liao lehx...hw arhx?! at 1st so scare, cos scare ppl will go crazy...nw nehx?! so sian liao...nuttin ta dixcuss abt liao...still wana ply para lehx...our para king bewi gd de worx...pro sia...mus make him teach moi moi...kekes...

d nxt time, we shall bk 1 wk de liao...4 day so fast ova liao...and rmbr ehh, we all hav a date to go and watch movie de worx...

thankies to evry1 for makin d chalet a 9s 1 ehh?!

thankies to all d bois, cos u guys reali did take gdie gd care obe us gals...

thankies to Ray and Meng(Para King) 4 acc-ying mie and moi piku go walk walk in d mid obe nite wen u guys cld have actuali jus slp...

since i cum back, my mind cnt stp think abt chalet again

*wishin d yr 2004 will nt end so fast*

(tonite dunnoe hw to express al ma feelins out, tml nite den write...my feelin oways cums out at nitex...kekex...)

1:11 AM Z

Thursday, October 28, 2004

``_____.*Chalet/tirEd mi.#

7:50 PM Z

``_____.*Back hm le....#

sigh...had a great or bad time?!

My piku and mie nva reali slept much, moi D.K slept like a log, sho shuang, and den at nite, i dun wan slp, evrybodi wan slp, i wan slp evbodi dun wan slp, sigh...diff timin de

sigh...so tired jus reached hm, ppl started findin fault wit mi le...so sick...shld'nt even have cum back...sigh...dun feel like quarreling, too tired to do tt le, so u can say wat eva u like...bt, wen i dun speak up, doesn't mean i dun have anithingy to say, bcos if i start openin my mouth, i'll make sure ur's will b tite shut!!! So dun think i dun dare, i jus dun wan to create conflicts and spoil our relationship!!! So, u beta stp findin fault wit mi...

sigh...4gt it, dun wana say so much le...

*kippin evrythingy inside myslf again...*

and hey guys, mush rembr moi ok?! i dunnoe hw long will our frenship last, bt, i'll try to make evry moment obe the time we're together a memorable 1 ehh?!

4:27 PM Z

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

``_____.*Chalet....#

kekes...nw at East Coast Park Mc, bois went to ply gamey, while a few obe us gals are here eatin, and here i am fillin up my D&G's blog.

tryin to b hapi, thankies 2 D.K and Piku(Jo) for buyin moi d cake to cel for moi a belated bday, though it's late, bt, it's d tot tt counts.

Even fwens treat moi beta den hw my Mum is...can ani1 jus blieve dis?!

Oh well, wat eva it is, i mus try nt to lose my temper and shw ani1 attutude dis few days, i'm nt hm, and i'm suppose to enjoy and b hapi, at least i'm nt at hm slavin moi life...

does ani1 out der reali cares?!

1:34 AM Z

Sunday, October 24, 2004

``_____.*It dis wat a Birthday shld b like?!.#

Sigh...bday was sick...h8 it...noboci cares...nt even d 1 hu gives birth to mie...she's oni concern abt "him", nobodi gives a damn...cryin is all i can do...sumtimes, nobodi even noe i cried...bt, cryin won't change d fact tt she's oni concern abt him...few days ago, she dun rmbr it's my bday till my sis says. Nobodi noe hw hurtful it is, can u imagine it?! Ur mum!!! Dun even noe ur bday's rnd d corner. And wen she cnt gt to cel "his" bday, she vent her anger on moi sis...bt today, she even 4gtten abt it, till afternoon, sumtimes i wonder, is she my biological mother?! If so, den y am i treated differently?!

Of all ppl at hm...y mus i b d 1 doin evrythingys while d others dun have to?! Dey dun do anithingys and dey were treated so much beta, jus like queens and kings, while i have to b d 1 hu b d slave. Evrtime i hav to go hm aftr sch asap, y mie?! And i h8 it!!! Hu dun like to go hm early and rest?! Bt, wen i gt hm, wat mus i do?! I have to do so mani thingys tt other ppl dun have to wen dey gt hm. Ppl's house is filled wit warm-ness, love & care to evrybodi, bt, hw abt mie?! Yes!!! I have dem at hm, bt, it's nt towards evrybodi, it's oni to dem...

He's gt evrythingys he wanted, and he den even hav to do a thingy to gt it, wat abt mie?! I do evrythingy i can to b a gd daughter, bt, all my effort is nt recognize, I noe we dun hav to do thingys to let ppl praise, bt, at least treat mie beta!!!

thankies to dear 4 cel moi bday wit moi...

u understand mie more den moi mum do...

u dote on mie more den moi mum do...

u love mie more den moi mum do...

and nt forgttin D.K and Piku(Jo) hu has oways bin der weneva dey can...

^so y pretend to care wen u're actuali nt?!^

*tryin to hold back my tears while writing dis*wishin i had d courage to take my own life rather den letting her torture like tt*filled wit hatred*

11:59 PM Z

Friday, October 22, 2004

``_____.*CrappY !~.#

remember mi ! D.K
xXx milliOn^tEarz xXx

11:18 AM Z

Thursday, October 21, 2004

``_____.*.#

tryin to think abt wat to tell evry1 on d chalet day...tryin to figure out hw i reali feel abt evry1...

1:43 AM Z

Saturday, October 16, 2004

``_____.*holidays....#

oh man d days w3n w3 wer3 all havin d most fun...is d day tt w3'r3 all gona b s3perat3d......hu nO3s w3n's d nxt tim3 w3'r3 all gOnna mit ech other...cliqin rnd, gOssipin abt ech oth3r...miss d tim3 w3n w3 w3r3 all lik3 urgu3-ing abt stuffs tt w3 jus cnt agree on...althOugh it's lik3, w3 hat3d 3ch oth3r...bt...w3' all frm d sam3 class aftr all...at 1st i tOt it's nt a reali gd idea tO actualli b in d same class as sum ob3 d3m...bt, durin d start thingys jus gt b3ta...and d3n...sum thingys gts wOrst and strt3d tO drift apart, may b...it is mi3...hu's stubbOrn and cr3at3 cOnflicts wit ech oth3r...and d last day was lik3...w3 w3r3 all tryin tO gt clOs3 tO 1 anOth3r...as clOs3 as pOssibl3...dun 3va wana lOs3 cOntact...bt, hu no3's wat will happ3n3d in d n3ar futur3?! I mit3 jus gt sick ob3 lif3 and jus jump dwn ani buildin...gt sO mani tO say tO 3vrybOdi...dunnO3 hw tO strt...and if i strt...i wOnd3r if i'll 3va nO3 hw ta 3nd my stOri...r3ali hat3d myslf...4 bein sO stupid...y did i 3v3n dO tt?! wat was i dOin?! cld sumbOdi jus tell mi3?! y nObodi wana corr3ct mi3 w3n3va i dO sumthingy wrOng?! Lif3 has jus toO mani q tt ppl cnt ans...

tO b cOntinu3d...

wana nO3 mOr3 abt D&G?!

Th3 D&G's stOri's cummin up...soon...

10:30 PM Z

``_____.*Steamboat.#

jus came back frm marina...todae's steamboat feel so odd...so mani ppl's missin...beta start plannin 4 chalet liao...evrybodi beta pay mi d $20 horx...kekes...treasurer lehx...hope evrythingys turns out fine on d chalet dae ehh?! Hope i wont shw anibodi my bloody attitude...oopx...

1:54 AM Z

Thursday, October 14, 2004

``_____.*Finally ... tO : (G.G / JOJO).#

5:20 PM Z

Sunday, October 10, 2004

``_____.*updates on 8th 9th octOber.#

1:20 PM Z

``_____.*hapi!!!.#

kekes...todae so hapi , watch le 2 shws kekes..."Art Of The Devils", thai shw nt bad la...again, it's bcos obe $$$ & love...sigh...den "White Chicks" was god damn funny sia...we all 6 luff till siao sia...mus catch d "Exocist" sia...budden NC16...hmpf!!! no gd de!!! nvm...ltr dis mth i can watch le...muahahaha!!!

1:28 AM Z

Saturday, October 09, 2004

``_____.*wakaka!!!.#

wakakas!!! jus send moi qing ai de D.K go hm...hehe...D.K jus dye hair hair...thankies to D.K 4 dyin my hair till mei mei...dunnoe if i shld dye dos punky colours anot lehx...hair spoil spoil liao lehx...sigh...

1:47 AM Z

Friday, October 08, 2004

``_____.*waa~~~.#

kekes..todae d last dae obe ma exam, havin d last ppr le...kekes...ltr can dye my hair hair...waa...sigh...gonna mish evrybodi in sch...though most obe dem are freakin irritatin...dey filled my life wit fun, luffter, no peace & joy...

9:30 AM Z

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

``_____.*life sux....#

life sux...biggy time!!! hate livin wit her...sch gimme holiday 4 wat?! it's 4 mi to rest and to study, ok, though i nva study, bt...i nid rest plenty plenty obe rest!!! And if i satisfy her?! means i have ta suffer ehh?! den hu'll satisfy moi?! sigh...i dunnoe wat else can i say le...nobodi noes!!! no bodi understand!!!

11:23 PM Z

``_____.*yaY oN tHursdaEx.#

9:58 PM Z

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

``_____.*exam....#

exam almost ova liao lehx...dunnoe if i shld perm moi hair anotx lehx...scare perm liao ltr look like chow chow de lehx...sigh...

10:31 PM Z

``_____.*Postiex xXx A.Y.#

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest?? -It isn't love, it's LIKE.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of her/him -It isn't love, it's LUST.

Are you proud, and eager to show her/him off?? -It isn't love, it's LUCK.

Do you want her because you know she's/he's there?? -It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.

Are you with her/him because it's what everyone wants?? It isn't love, it?s LOYALTY.

Are you with her because she/he kissed you, or held your hand? It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.

Do you stay for her/him confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt her/him? It isn't love, it's PITY.

Do you belong to her/him because the sight of her/him makes your heart skip a beat?? It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.

Do you pardon her faults because you care about her/him? It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.

Do you tell her/him every day she is the only one you think of? It isn't love, it's a LIE.

Are you willing to give up all of your favorite things for her sake?It isn't love, it's CHARITY.

Does your heart ache and break when she's sad? Then it's LOVE.
Do you cry for her/his pain, even when she's/he's strong? Then it's LOVE.

Do her/his eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?Then it's LOVE.

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you to her/him? Then it's LOVE.

Do you accept her/his faults because it's a part of who she/he is? Then it's LOVE.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with her/him faithfully without regret?? Then it's LOVE.

Would you give her/him your heart, your life, your death?? Then it's LOVE.

Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why do we love? Why is it all we search for in life? This pain, this agony? Why is it all we long for? This torture, this powerful death of self? Why?
The answer is so simple cause it's...LOVE. It is such an addictive thing that even people who are not having it wish to experience it and share it with others as well.

tell al this to all your friends so they don't make the same mistake with their LOVE LIVES!! I like the dreams of the future better than the history of the past...

Love hurts our feeling, but it's also the reason our soul heal..But one day when u truly fall in love... remember to let the 'someone' know..to suffer a moment of embarassment is better than letting your happiness fly away forever ...

xXxmilliOn^tEarzxXx
D.K boggy_waterhole@hotmail.com

8:30 PM Z

Sunday, October 03, 2004

``_____.*exam!!!.#

sigh...feel so scare...tml's d N LEVEL eng liao...i haven/nva study anithingy yet lehx...sigh sigh...i guess i'm ova confident of my eng, CPA & EOA...bt...wat if d result came out...and i fail...omg, wat am i to do?! nobodi can help mi dis time...

wish u guys out der takin N LEVEL all d best bahx!!!

gd luck...

g3rl^gal_scorpio88@hotmail.com^

11:03 PM Z

Saturday, October 02, 2004

``_____.*uN-graMentx prOblemx.#

2:53 PM Z

Friday, October 01, 2004

``_____.*$$$ is d root obe all evil....#

Sigh...$$$ is d root obe all evil...she doesn't even noe hw i feel. i cried...nobodi noes...i hide myslf in a corner, cryin my way...dun feel like livin animore, i nid sum1 to took to, bt...i cnt bring myslf to say thingys. And 1 thingy is tt, she dun even noe my exams are rnd d corner. She thinks tt oni my bro and sis hav to study. Jus bcos dey hav beta results, doesn't mean dey gt more thingy to study. And wen i score high marks 4 a subject, i came hm and told her...she's nt interested, sumtimes i wonder if i'm reali her daughter, if i am so, den y is she so unfair?! I'm oso havin my major exam and she dun even noe it...i h8 her...

Wen i cum hm, i hav to help her at her shp, while my sis and bro can relax, i have to do so mani housework...and 1s i nva do, she'll nag nag nag, sumtimes i even have to cook...i hid all dis inside mi 4 so long...nobodi noes...i dun dare tell her hw i feel...

She dotes on my bro...loads, and she still says tt she is fair. Wen we try to defend ourslves, she treaten us by sayin tt she won't giv us $$$ ani more...

Though cryin helps mi to feel beta, it doesn't help solve d prob...wat d use ofmi cryin so much den?!

If i gt d ability to feed myslf, i'll leave dis place a place i so called home, i try to let evrybodi think tt i'm a hapi child...bt...deep inside of mi...i noe tt i'm nt.

Evrybodi thinks tt i have a gd mother...but...no bodi noes wat reali lies bhind mie...if i gt d courage to take my own life...i will...bt, d bad thingy is tt,well...i dun hav...nt mani ppl can understand mie...infact, evrybodi mistaken mie...

I cnt take dis animore...saying evrythingy she said b4...al dis words dey make no sense...i dunnoe wat can i do already...wat eva i do, she's nt satisfied...she'll nva b satisfied wit ani1...

g3rl^gal_scorpio88@hotmail.com^

10:50 PM Z

``_____.*aiyaAa .#

8:26 AM Z